ups and downs

since Saturday, things have been ok. There are some times in the day where I just find myself wanting to slip into sadness and bad thoughts start crowding my head. I try to keep myself busy with something, whether its TV, radio, or whatever. I notice the worst is when I don't have anything to keep my mind busy. Our vacation is less than a week away, so i will be bust getting ready for that. I just keep hoping and praying that we can start our IVF cycle this month. As long as we get back in time and AF works with me, then we can. I am ready to do something!